This Saturday is the 4th of July. I had a general idea that June was ending and July was beginning, but it didn't really register until today that the holiday was also quickly approaching. I have Friday off, since the 4th of July falls on Saturday. This is a gift but what to do with my time?
I can unpack. I can finish moving in and getting settled. I can hang out by the lake, though I figure it will be so busy and crowded that it would be the type of environment that I'm likely to avoid. There's something about large crowds sometimes when I'm alone -- the're oppressive and exhausting. There's too much to listen to, to pay attention to, to be aware of. Almost like losing my place in the world and being an unwilling part of a collective, jostling to simply be as I want.
I'm not really sure what to do with the time, though I should perhaps be tackling this as a positive rather than a problem to solve. No matter what I do, I'll have the time. If I want to sit around and do nothing, I don't fail at life and lose the time.
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